Just so tired as i just came back from Thailand and Malaysia。。OMG！！！The weather sucks man。。It‘s damm hot，but i have fun too。。。

他的背板,令我长大,我的爱情......消失了在这里

我喜欢你！我喜欢你！喜欢得自己都要不认得自己了！我知道你不喜欢我，我知道你烦我，我也想要让自己不那么惹人厌，可是我就是控制不住自己去喜欢你。我想时时刻刻见到你，我想看见你过得好……”

我是不是应该放弃了啊...当你看到我时,你却武略了我,与我檫身而过,我的心好痛哦...

//////原来喜欢一个人,这么这么的痛....//////明明是喜欢他的,却因为种种原因,而放弃,放开他,但我却这么也忘不了他,讨厌这样的自己///////

 Quite a long time nv post la.....Today i have a competition at AVT...SO SO SO worried about it .....but at last finish ....HAHA....Tmr gonna take the exam sheet..Then it will be the time i leave him and probably nxt year  he dun even remember me even if he remember I bet he will not tlk to me,cuz i am just a past to him..

刚看完丫王的文章,好伤心..可是我的心却感受不到痛..不应该是已经习惯了这种痛了..为什么爱会让人感受到痛,,为什么爱是可以欺骗的,爱不是应该让人感到幸福吗?我是不是很傻啊,而是痛到入股...呵呵...

想念起你、我不知道我们谁对谁错,如果,当初你跟我说分手,是为我好,那你为何又在出现..甚至你的一切,都要改变,难道不是说再见吗??.

I hate this so called as family!!!! I used to have a wonderful family ,that stayed grandparents.parents and my siblings..But after my grandpa have gone,my grandma have lost his life meaning,and she always fight with my parents but shee would always be thr for me...What abt my parents??They only know abt working and abt my result ..but did they help me alot behalf of giving me tutor....I really really dun understand what is family,cuz i dun have it...

So so long nv update le...Sorry!!!This few days i so pitiful sia..Hahax..Actually friends is shit , i can live without them,I hate those ppl who betray frens and hate those ppl who cry if they dun have fens..I am more pitiful than them,my frens betray me ,my parents ignore me,i lost my love ,interest on everthngi and even my work is kind of shit..Am i pitiful enough to cry....HAHA!!!

 The painful truth , today is Lit,i wanted u to find something but u just  keep on and avoid me for any close touch,keep on persuade me and go off...Am i that annoying? Why when u are tlking to that gal,u not afraid of her,u even let her touch ur nose ur eyes,ur everything... Does that means anything

I call him but end up hanging up the phone after hearing his voice..I am a coward..hahax...Why can't i just face him?He said sorry tome ,but i dun have the courage to forgive him..I am scared i will lyk him again and get hurt...I DUN WANT TO GET IN LOVE AND  GET HURT !!!!!!!!!

明明说好要让你心痛，为何我就是下不了手！！！好失败。。。为什么但我听到你不想我原谅你的时候，我心有一阵阵的痛，有冲动想问你为什么。。难道是因为你已有喜欢得人，所以没关系了。。Love is what???Love hurts alot,why is always me the one who is hurting.. Maybe i just not prepared for the outcome of breaking!!!!!!!!!

Just read finish the creepy story ..."THE HAND OF DEVIL," stuck at the read and reap ...OMG..My fingers hurts,i have type almost near hundred ...My vision are bulr..Still left the 2009 mathz paper...Left one more day to School ...SO FAST.......

Today,i sms him for my frens num..BUT he told me he dun have..WHAT A LIE !!!Christine told me he have and he told me he dun have...WTF,he tlking...RUBBISH...I want his heart to bleed like me...But he told me he dun have feeling ,he means what.no feeling on me or WHAT...I WANT HIM TO PAIN..

Finally finish the Anglo-Chinese performance,i was damn scared,my palm sweat when playing,so embarrassed...After that we were waiting for the bus,but unfortunately,the bus too OLD le,broke down..haha...Then fiona,novin ,shishi,wen wei,christine ,weawen and me was playing thr,so fun..HAHA....

So excited 4 tmr band performance...I scared i lose the tempo la..AHAH...Why gt this performance la,if not i wouldn't be so worried abt losing the tempo..SCARED!

What the hell...Today got band leh...got scolded,so difficult,must follow the music and tempo..surely failed the..Ms tan and Mr er insult me sia..IDIOTIC...................Today for me is a miserable day..When he smile,i would also smile..I have promise myself not to suffer,but why why why???Today ,Shi Shi told me to sms HIM,said that he want to explain the misunderstanding,but he can always told me personally..WAT A SHIT REASON IS THIS!If he really want to explain,why can't he said sorry,or talk to me personally..A COWARD..When he did anything wrong,i am the one who said sorry to him,not him..Now i am not going to be that silly ..I dun want myself to hurt...

哈哈。。我今天终于跟她说生日快乐，但是他只给我一个答案，算了吧。。什么意思？难到他根本不在乎。。呵呵。。对哦。。在他心里根本没有我的地位。。在那一刻，我的心在流血。。这是我最后一次，为他哭，为他而笑。。。我保证，我和他没有可能了。。。

明天就是她的生日了。。。哈哈。。。本来是想送她礼物的。。。但是我们已经不是GF 和BF 了。。。我只能跟他说声对不起，生日快乐。。。哈哈。。忘掉他好“容易”哦。。我们一没关系了，为何还记住他的生日呢。。哈哈。。。傻B

可能你是对的吧。。。我更本有问题，我不是那么关系人，根本不认识自己。。我讨厌我自己，我身边的所有一切。。每天看到你被女生逗开心，感觉心有一阵阵的痛。。可是我不是忘一吗？这么有开始，我不要，我不要你给的痛。。。

So long never post la...sorry...Today is band OMG...left 4 more lesson to go for the competion 4 only sec 1 in 4 sep..So worry and scared...hahax..

Am i that ignoring?Why u keep hiding away from me?Is there anything wrong for me to like you ..y must i be the one to cry...NO,I DUN NEED UR SYMPATHY,I JUST WANT UR LOVE...Cuz of u ,i cried,cuz of u ,i dun believe this world gt love,u make me look helpless...I hate u..But i hate myself more for being o useless

I decided to forget him..But am i right to do so...Why can't u all understand ?At first i want his sorry personally..Now i seriously dead for him..I am tired to retrain this relationship..Choose to give up and i want him to be happy..Seeing that he are more happier when not with me..He is really cute when he was at that style..

Yes...4 days of hoilday..Maybe,i can take this time to forget him..Or like those ppl said i will forgive him..But he simply dun said anything does he think that he didn't do anything wrong..Haha...Care so much 4 wat...

DAMA FRUSTRATED...!!!!!!!!!

JASON SIM JUN WEI....AHAH...Who r u to said me and who r u u to hate me...U idiot...so wat if i gt attitude problem so what if i am those girl who always beat boys...or what....DOES THAT EVEN AFFECT YOU...YOU ARE THE ONE WHO CAUSE ME SO MOODY..AHAHA....I NOT GONNA TLK TO U ....

Today ...actually gt 2.4km Nafra test....but cuz of bad weather ,so postponeed...So gd..But that come the bad ending...ahaha i cried 4 3 times today....so sad..want to know why ..i ASO DUN NOE

IDIOT SIA...STUPID teacher scold wat scold said wat said sia... Better mind ur own business...Dun do dun do la....also won't die ..i s ur fault to delay time is ur fault when u tlk something not include my subject..U diam.....OMG...he fall in love with my "sis"Should i just stay ther and do nothing..Yes i should have...I and him have ended..But why am my heart hurting..NO..THAT shouldn't be.. is o0nly my thinking..YES IT IS....HAHA

Yea..........I gonna watch all story abt Guilun without any distraction,,,,I have been wanting to watch it....Hoping that next monday will be a happy day...

I am free for no more boyfrens today...haha..bit of sad.....Finally he choose his face and frens not me....But nvm..At least i know the ans..dun tlk those boring things...Tmr gt band leh..Gonna being bored..Maybe go flute or persuasion.. haha..change four time of instruments le la.. haha wish this is my last time to change...

AHAHHA...don't know what boys thinking abt...Do they know what is lv3?Why they act so cold ,dun know u in front of their frens but behind it they apologise and sent u present ...Is that have any use for it..i dun want that king od lov3...i want those who can admit ur love not those shy ppl..HATE IT MEN..

Just come back from jurong point..I saw some idols there....Got BY2 ,刘若英。。some i dun noe names...so wish to have ther signture...butr too many ppl sosqueezy..and i brought new bag and wallet..So fun there with my sis...

在那一瞬间，全部的事，停留在那。。。那该有多好啊。那么你和我就不会这么悲伤的结束这段感情在这。。你知道吗？跟你在一起，却埋怨着你，只想要我爱情发烧，让你永远不准离开我的声旁。。。你说喜欢我，想让全世界知道。。。我喜欢你想大声的炫耀。。可是分的时候。却只想和你在一起度过每一天。。。不想结束你和我。。

Today got band sia....I dun noe how to play....Very embrassed to those seniors...IDIOT"wei ba"..你是没尝试过死吧。。。Keep spreading me...zhang 00000000 ,so called as"alarm clock ".I am not a alarm clock...u this stupied wei ba...IDIOT...

Shit ....i am having a fever from yesterday......So i never go to band ....i have stomachache,cough and of course fever...SICKENING!just dun feel alright ....

Today got the boring workshop  at Anderson socondary sch...Weawen,Wen wei ,I and Christine meet at 11 to go JP 4 breakfast and LUNCH...After that we think too early so walk around.Then realise is too late..Rush to sch...A t there, I learnt quite of something like how to blow air accurately and posture....So tiring .Today the stupied bus driver dun noe how to drive ..Keep go wrong direction.Take almost one hour to come back..

Hoildays....

Sry...for not posting so long....I have gone for Malaysia to play....i have been thr for abt 1 week just to play.....Thr was amazing...i have gone crazy there...I play overnight games...Hahax...so many freedom there...EXCELLENT!!!!!

Paiseh...So long nv update....SO busy la...
Me,zhang ling...whole week was occupied by band camp and the idiot tuition...
Have quarrels wif my frens and bf...
nothing go good to me this week....
so bored in hoildays...
SUPER SIAN...

What do you want frm miiii???

I treat you as my frens n stead.....But y just can't u believe...I already try my very hard to maintain this ....and i really herd to tlk and understand you but y just can't you try to be my side and protect me.....SORRY...I think i have to relax for some days....i will not tlk...

Yes....i finally tlk at phone with him le about two hrs....but i just dun understand if at first he dun like you ,y must he act that way.....doesn't he noe that it would let those gals misunderstand..if u just treat her as a frens...u should just told him that way,dun let him misunderstand that long,and have those fats hopes....u boys sickening

Today,,yes..my exams all pass....but not that perfect(∩_∩)O哈哈~。。。。

• Sci:78
• Mathz:77.6
• Eng:54.5
• Chi:68.2
• His:60.6
• DnT:64.2
• Art:50.6

Muaks....luckly i passed....Walau...got improved no PRESENTS....why parents always make empty promise...Sometime really hate them..哼。。

 Do you know something? It is a fact .I REALLY REALLY LV3 YOU?but do u know abt it?i bet u don't know...All u did is to treat me as a sster and sometime u really hurt me....My mind is all abt you...Thinking about you makes me cried....But is still did it.  In the end i lose u and u dun noe abt it .....                                                                                                     

Today ...last day of school....quite sad cuz need to leave apart with frens and also my bf..hahax but happy no need do those sucks homework and no need to SEE TEACHERSSSS....My frens all said why i buy so many straw? cuz my bf birthday coming le.......I said it here again....when am i flirt?MY frens also include buys do you want me to broke with them...that doesn't means i flirt ....Can u said u nv tlk to boys or touch boys or tlk to them...U STOP THAT NONSENSE..IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT WAY...

Now we haven't been talking for a week.......We just stranger to each other....FINE......u dun want to tlk is fine ..i not that kind of gal that push boyfriend to tlk or listen to u.....And we are past le....although we know our lv3 still never end.....u want to stay quiet then u dun talk to me 4 eva...i am ok...                                                            Today last lesson od DNT...miss DnT.........cannot play ....so sad.....but still got Home Economic ..hahax..they said not fun at all..dun noe leh...DUN CARE...hahax...bye bye............

Boys sucks!

Boys really really sucks...OMG...What is boys thinking abt?Does they noe what lv3>is ?Then so stupid....How would they noe these gals feeling if they don't ask.....Will it died?How would they noe the gals they like dun like him.....So stupid...Rejected so what..At least tried......Yes ....today finish exams....so good...can play com le.....

'CRIED'

Today I cried for him and i think of him....So far as now he send message to me today at 6pm...He said sorry to me....but he told me nothing other that he so cold to me ,from that moments ,we are not that close..We are strangers...He even help me to be involved with his frens that like me ....Iwas so sad ,i thought in our heart ,our lv3 have not ended....This moments,I CRIED for him...OR should i be HAPPY .. or should i be SAD or mixed him with my fens that like him......I just dun Noe

WHY?

Today i go tuition...HE dun even sms me..I asked he is he angry or have he forget abt me....He dun even reply me...We can be frens..Is that diffcult?Lawls..Y can't u treat me as frens..SORRY..WHY MUST THAT HAPPEN ..WHY..WHY...

Today sucks

Today first period is mathz....gt test...WTH..dun noe how to do ...死定了啦。。Second period is History...OMG....i am going to die le la....NEED PING UP FRIG SO UGLY....THE rest is chi.......By the way todsy is the third day i broke with him,i just cannot forget even if i tried....He treat me very cold..Y must him...we can still be frens...Why can't he understand me...We cannot even said hi to each other...SUCKS

SORRY

Yesterday,wo finally broke...I know u dun bear to leave me apart ..as ur tears drops...Sorry for all. maybe i am not the type u want..Forget all about me ba..bye..i am the trouble of you...SORRY..

Bad luck!

==If is because i do wrong anything ,i can change...but u told me that is becuz we cannot chat in sms,cuz i going to change phone after this,and our lv3 will faded cuz at sch also don't talk ,sms also cannot tlk ,we break..what can of nonsense is this!This is not called true lv3...I rather now break than later we break..After all this is not the relationship i want...

Sian..

Today dam...bored....no sch no tuition.....Hahax ..haven't do the sci assignment ..don't feel like doing anything ...today from morning till now i facing com without eating my breakfast and lunch....Ah so bored ..wish three days of holidays include sat and sun end faster..Want to meet my frens faster..

OMG

Today is the last day of sch!..Today need to stay back cuz make too much noise....But we have fun sia....I go make Jason.Yizhe they all...Walao!Soon yang !You dun any how from my behind poop out la..Stupied idiot!

Hello!

Hello.....My first day in here....